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ok so me and kattie are not dateing and i couldent feel better about it.
i was waaaay to preshured into that relationship, but i still like katie and still likes me so its not like we dont like eachother anymore.
ok well um way past time for an update right?
well i guess i kinda like a girl now.
she makes me really bubbly and happy inside....which is a feeling i really missed. but there are two other girls who i like.....one likes me back and the other one dosent even know i exist. but yeah i guess i am going out with this one girl. but i dont know i feel really bad...like maby its too soon...but then i think about it and i say why should i feel bad. i dident do anything to hurt anyone and i want to move on, not saying that i havent....i havent had a choice but to move on...so i guess i did....its really hard to put these things into words. but yeah things are just excessivly confuseing right now.
i dont know weather to go left or right, or up or down.
school is going great. except for physics...cuz im lazy and never did my only asignment.
i got my id card i love the picture on it. its the best....umm yeah alex, dan, and kattie killed kevin....and then we had a funeral.....we cryed, we laughed, and then we drank soda. it was fun. and then we got over kevin....and ate lunch....today has been excessivly productive.
but yeah anyway...but to the main point of this entry. i dont know exactly what i am suposed to do. i asked her out. she said yes. but i feel like nothing was acompolished between the two of us. things are still slightly awkward between me, alex, and her. i was hopeing this would get rid of it...but it seems to make things only worse.....i feel like giveing up on it. but that would proably make things worse now i dont know where things are suposed to go. i always had the other person hold my hand and lead me threw the steps of what is suposed to happen next. but i dont have that this time...i cant tell if that means that this isent ment to work out or if i just need to step up and do everything my self? i havent the faintest idea....i have just dug myself in this deep hole. god i cant wait for school to get out. i want to be done. i want to move on to the next chapter of my life. lately i have felt sick to my stomach....i cant tell if its because everyone else is sick that i hang out with...or if its just that i dont know i make myslef sick. i am tired of feeling like this. this has been the longest 3 months of my life. i am sick and tired of everything being so bleek and dark. i think for now on im gonna make myself be happy till i puke. |
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| ok can anyone say FUCKING AMAZING SHOW?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?
because i shure as fuck can.....
 nick & will.
i think im in fucking love.
nick
AND YES HE IS SCREAMING AT ME! i rember that moment!.
he's my hero.
fatty.
i think will likes to touch me alot.
yeah those are the pics. eddie took. uhhh uh. it sucks that eddie had to leave so early.....while aiden played they took out like all of there energy out on me and eddie because we were the only people there who knew who the fuck aiden was....and that there THE BEST-EST BAND EVER! so yeah they kept grabbing me and eddie and let us constantly sing into the microphone.
It was simply amazing. It sucks though that eddie had to leave so early because after aiden played i got to hang out with them till the end of the show....we were constantly talking just about random stuff it was the best and alot of other things happened and then next thing i knew it was about 12ish so i ran home to find out that i was in big trouble...yeah that sucks...but hey best damn show i have ever been too.
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yeah i think im done with xanga.....i was this close to deleteing my xanga file. but some one talked me out of it....so if i get enough demands to keep my xanga....then ok ill keep it. and ill continue to update...its just that i get more comments than i can handle at one time...and its beyond fustrateing...i dont get on a computer much and all i ever have time to do is comment people back and stuff. and that is causeing me to lose some what of a connection with some friends such as morgan and other people like that. so i think im gonna stick to myspace for the most part. so add me if you want thanks.
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